Am I a hypocrite for blogging about this stuff when in real
life I screw up… a lot?
I suppose that is entirely up for interpretation. I don’t
consider myself one because all over this blog, I point out the obvious state
of perpetual development that I am in. Frankly, we are all in this state, so
long as we are willing to be.
I am certainly still avoiding issues and not being the best
person I can on a regular basis. As previously mentioned, I do not, under any
circumstances, consider myself ‘better’ for posting about my life on the
Internet. Indeed, it takes far less courage to post about my mistakes then to
face them head-on. Mature enough to recognize this? Yes. Mature enough to totally
change? I’m afraid not and this is my personal development but to those
chastising it, I recommend you focus on your own.
This is a place where I am entirely honest about my life, my
struggles and my mistakes. It’s my personal blog. If it offends you then I urge
you not to read it.
There is no illusion; I hide from my problems all the time! I don’t eat lunch with my
classmates and recently that has become a good strategy to avoid hearing the
gossip about me. I know all the hiding places in my school because I ran from
my teachers and guidance councillors to avoid issues with my academics. I spend
a lot of my time in my basement bedroom hiding from the real world because it’s
often too much pressure and stress for me.
I post a lot and helps me. I only started this because I
love to write; I need to write. I never meant for this to help or displease
anyone. If it helps you than I am overjoyed that I could be of assistance to
you. If you don’t like it then please feel free to disregard everything I say
here and get on with your own life.
I don’t want to make everyone happy. If everyone were happy
than I wouldn’t be standing up for anything. This is on the public domain and
so both you and I can say whatever we want, free speak and what not; but this
is still my blog.