Crying is a sign of weakness.
This phrase has been the moto of too much of my life. At the moment I'm proving how wrong that is, I am too weak to cry. I have had a rough couple of days and the news just keeps rolling in; it's the kind of situation that anyone would/should cry about. Not me. I am so drained of energy that I can't muster the stamina to cry or even be particularly sad.
People who cry are probably significantly more healthy than I. I am such a disaster that I can't. Which is worse? Most people seem to believe that sitting where I'm at is better then breaking down and admitting to being hurt and needing help. Let me tell you, it's not. This is worse because there is very little anyone can do to help you and it feels as though you can't do anything to help yourself.
In the last month I have lost 3 very important people to me but- unlike 2010- none of them have passed away, they just all needed to move on from my life. I can't recall the last time I was in this mindset and all I can currently do is blog and sleep, with a couple disney movies on the side. I don't even have the drive to go make tea let alone enough to go out and buy flowers. So what do you do when you're unable to accomplish the things that typically make you happy? I have no idea. What I can do though is appreciate how far I've come in the last year. If this were going on a year ago I would be in much worse shape; physically as well as mentally.
As hopeless as it feels right now, given how far I've come in the last 365 days, I can only imagine how much more I'll have learned by December 21 2014.
In the last month I have lost 3 very important people to me but- unlike 2010- none of them have passed away, they just all needed to move on from my life. I can't recall the last time I was in this mindset and all I can currently do is blog and sleep, with a couple disney movies on the side. I don't even have the drive to go make tea let alone enough to go out and buy flowers. So what do you do when you're unable to accomplish the things that typically make you happy? I have no idea. What I can do though is appreciate how far I've come in the last year. If this were going on a year ago I would be in much worse shape; physically as well as mentally.
As hopeless as it feels right now, given how far I've come in the last 365 days, I can only imagine how much more I'll have learned by December 21 2014.