Working Out Self-Harm

Mental illness is a global phenomenon but not globally accepted. Some societies view it as a myth, a generation gap, or a luxury. Every place, generation and person has their own baggage and their own coping mechanisms; even if that’s just pretending it doesn’t exist. It scares many because it is a new concept. Today there are diagnoses, prescriptions and therapies that didn’t exist 10 years ago (let a lone a generation ago). Even faced with ¼ people in Canada being diagnosed with a mental illness; there are those who tell me I’m full of crap for saying I deal with depression and anxiety.

A concept nobody seems willing to accept (myself included) is that we’re all damaged. Not one person has it all figured out. People walk around like it’s all good; they’re on top of the world and nothing can touch them. The greatest offenders of this are men; they have to appear strong, brave and indestructible for fear of not being “manly” enough. Of my siblings, my brother is probably the most damaged because he internalizes everything and doesn’t allow himself to show any deep emotions. I think that intellectually we can all agree that this isn’t healthy, but nobody is willing to change. Regardless of health, we still expect so much of these guys and they expect even more of themselves.

There’s a lot of talk about the pressure on women and I am certainly not contesting it but the hardships males endure have been very much grazed over. Many guys will end up taking whatever emotion they are feeling and turn it into workout motivation instead of actually addressing it. I know this sounds a lot healthier then my past coping strategies (i.e hurting myself) but wait, we’ll get there.

Working-out in general is good for you, both mentally and physically but it is becoming something more than just a feel-good activity; it’s turning into an addiction. Any sensible person knows that an addiction is bad and has an extremely negative connotation around it, largely involving drugs and rehab. However, similar to how addicting self-harm (in the traditional sense) is, there are many other things that fall into the same category. Most people are addicted to something and if your addiction is knitting then good for you, A+ on your choice of addiction but the rest of us have problems we don’t want to admit.

I’ve gone over many different forms of self-harm and frankly, I thought I had most of them figured out; but as usual, I was proven wrong…there’s a lot more then I realized, they’re just more sneaky than anything I figured out. I knew previously that people with eating disorders would use workouts as a form of purging but I failed to see it as self-harm in itself. Like anything I suppose, working out excessively is a self-abuse strategy and although not all the way to self-mutilation-still inflicting intentional pain on one’s body.

Not showing emotion for most males is something instilled by the older generation and perpetuated by one’s peers. Weakness, at most, should be kept in a man’s home but even then “quite acting like a girl” is a common phrased commonly used by a father as his son’s lip quivers. The concept is hideous; not being allowed to be who you are and show how you feel.

Then, later in life these guys are nagged by their significant other about not communicating or talking about their feelings…how is he supposed to know how to do that? “Manly” men don’t show emotion/ weakness (words which are viewed as synonymous although aren’t) but they also have to be good communicators/listeners for their partner.


I don’t expect anything to change over night about this. If history has taught us anything, it’s that change that happens too fast doesn’t turn out well. I just thought that this was something interesting for us to consider.

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