Can we just take a moment to appreciate how hard it is to
get out of bed in the morning? I’m sure that even if you don’t have a mental
illness you can understand this. I’m not talking about when you were out
partying (or in my case, watching a criminal minds marathon) late and are just
too tired; I’m talking about those mornings when you got the healthy dosage of
sleep and still can’t drag yourself from bed.
Personally, those mornings- or afternoons- consist of my
trying to find motivation, a reason to get up and face the day. This morning I
was trying to do that and all I could think about was a car full of guys
yelling about how I’m a bad person out the windows at me, how much work I
haven’t done, if I’ll even graduate and how filthy my room is. Fun, eh?
I should be in class right now. I’m not. I’m not even sure I
will go to any of them today. Class seems so irrelevant but then, so does high
school as a whole. I’m writing this as my eyes ache with exhaustion causing me
to basically type this with my eyes closed. Why is this such an issue?
People who get up for work on time or to school every
morning despite this- you are superheroes. I have been late to school every day
for weeks and have missed a grand total of 35 full days of school (if you add
up all my missed classes). I can sleep for 10 hours and still nap for 3 hours
later in the day…sometimes this means I don’t leave bed or at least my room at
all.
Depression sucks. I’m so angry at it right now. I’m aware of
how bizarre that sounds but sometimes we’re ok, depression and I; sometimes
it’s helpful to me. Not in the mornings.
If you care to actually know the medical explanation of all
this; here is the link to The National Sleep Foundation’s information:
The long and short of it is; hats off to those who still get
out of bed in the morning but if you can’t sometimes, please know you are not
alone.
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