Depression Forever!

Being depressed and anxious all the time for the last 8 years has sucked. That having been said, i would not wish away my mental illnesses for anything. It’s easy to say “oh i wish my life was easier” or “why do i have to go through all this crap?” but in reality its my struggles that have either brought my best friends to me or seriously strengthened my close friendships.

As much as pain sucks in the moment, i believe that it is an absolutely necessary part of life. Imagine the world with no pain. Nobody would have to be brave or stand up for what they believe in; there would be nothing to strive for. We would all just be milling around, content and somewhat pampered. I don’t think I’d want us to function like that. What would anyone work for? Don’t get me wrong, i have sever depression so i am well aware and have experienced how much the pain in life hurts but I’d never wish it away.

I am so much stronger and more caring a person because of it. I can sympathize and relate to others far better then i ever could before dealing with these struggles. I also have no friends to eat lunch with at school but i have lots of people that trust me and talk to me about stuff going on in their life. Social anxiety prevents me from being comfortable with a group of my peers, but I’ve been able to have life-altering 1:1 chats with inspiring people. Interesting how more pain can actually being about more joy, isn’t it? Most of the truly amazing people i know have been through hell and back but lived to tell the tale. The hard part is pushing through the hell going on; many crack underneath it. That is when we end up with young people killing themselves. My generation is becoming known as the sad generation. I hope that means that when we’re all older we’ll become the generation that inspires others to keep going when they are walking through hell.